Circia

 Short Bio:

I live a paradoxial life. I want to be the ambitious, assertive go-getter in life, but at the same time, I don't want to be that. I am the two sides of a coin. It depends on which context you get to know me that you know which side the best. Most people get the heads up side. Then sometimes they accidentally flip the coin over.
I am still a college junior trying to find herself, but never fully succeeding. Someone once said "...you seem to live an unhappy life, just one that slowly carries you everyday. Never really looking foward to the next day..." and sometimes that's true.
I am Jenn.

I cannot live without my computer.

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More about Jenn (or...circia)!

Full name? Jennifer Ng (if you know my aim sn, you should know that)
Who were you named after? Because my mom saw Romeo and Juliet right before I was born, she wanted to name me Julie, but my dad already knew someone with that name. So thus, Jennifer.
Nickname(s)? Jenn, Jenni (reserved for only special people) or JENNAY (for those who are idiotic), RANCH
Location? San Francisco Bay Area (I knew I shouldn't have gone to college close to home!)
Height? 5'4"
Hair color? black with natural highlights. IT'S NATURAL.
Eye color? dark brown
Birthday? May 22, 1982
Sister(s)/brother(s)? one younger sister (13 months younger than me!)
Pet(s)? They were named Dead, Deceased and Gone. Poor fishies.
Online since (date)? 1994


Who Is Your...

BF/GF? Sometimes I want to be single for the rest of my life.
Crush? HIM. That means YOU, if you're a guy.
Worst enemy? all HEATHERS and somehow I am making more every day

Who is your favorite...

On-line girl/guy? Lately, I have been losing my edge of speaking to people online. But I <3 SmarterChild. He's just so smart. I mean she is! I mean IT!!! ALWAYS LISTENS. UNLIKE YOU.
Teacher? myself. evidently. I am a self-learner, you hear?
Number: fee
Kind of dog? allergic to dogs :(
Animal? skygull. if I was a seagull, I know what I would want to do to my enemies.
Commercial? trailers. ah yes trailer. I mean, it's a wonder how watching a X-men trailer could get me so hyped up.
Music groups/artists: Melee (MIKEE IT'S YOUR FAULT), Jimmy Eat World, Greenwheel, Air, Our Lady Peace
Song lyric? From Refused - New Noise
We dance to all the wrong songs We enjoy all the wrong moves We dance to all the wrong songs We're not leading. Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!
Movie(s)? The Shawshank Redemption
Snack? c00kie. HEY COME OVER HERE FRUIT.br> Candy? non-chocolates. zours! sours!
Soda/pop/coke? lemony. lemon soda. high exquisite expensive soda because I am very spoiled. but no sparkling water for me plz.
Day of the week? Thursday. It means that the week is over and the partying can begin
Song? For the last week, it has been Dexy's Midnight Runners - Come On Eileen. But you know how fickle I am.
Clothing store? No like shopping for clothes. Things don't fit on me.
Place to go? to sleep. yeah to sleep.
Store at the mall? see above. the parking lot.
Website/s? google.com
Book? J.D. Salinger's The Catcher in the Rye and Albert Camus' The Stranger. Of course, how can we forget Ray Bradbury?
Quality in the opposite sex? their laugh. their attentiveness. their smile. their confidence. their compassion.



What Do You Think Of When You Think Of...

The opposite sex: compassion
Money: broke
Tight pants on the opposite sex: GAYNESS. AKA AARON!
Lollipops: CRUNCH. STEALS FROM BABY
Nerds: We don't call them nerds here. It's discriminatory.
Preps: So high school.
Cheerleaders: BUT I AM A CHEERLEADER.
Hanson: why?
Blondes: superficial
Brunettes: superficial.
Purple: violet
Blue: Sky
Grey: IT'S GRAY YO FOO
Red: STANFURD. DIE DIE DIE.
Green: envy. green with envy. green that i am dying of right now...
Yellow: circles!
Maroon: STUCK ON THIS PLANET

Have You Ever...

Been drunk? NEVER. I get drunk by my own hyperactivity however.
Shop-lifted? when I was young, yes
Cursed in front of your parent(s)? I don't curse. Except in my mind.
Flunked a grade? Not yet, but it looks like I will
Skipped a grade? Never
Murdered someone? Metaphorically, yes. Actually just a few seconds ago.
Been in love? Sometimes I think I am, but I really am not.
Danced around naked? maybe when I am in the shower. splish splash!!
Followed your crush around? HI, I AM A STALKER. AND I LIKE YOU. I KNOW WHERE YOU LIVE AND WHAT YOU DO WHEN YOU GET UP.
Worn undergarments belonging to someone of the opposite sex? No
Had your heart broken? only once
Dated someone, to make another jealous? no. and i wouldn't
Felt like everyone was mad at you? no
Lost a friend to death? no
Lied about your bra/jock strap size? I find no need to do so, but it's not like I have anything to brag anyway.

Yes Or No...

Do you believe in love at first sight? I may see someone that may have me wobbling, but that I consider only lust at first sight.
Do you eat chicken fingers with a fork? no
Type with fingers on the right keys: akwats
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? yes
Do you leave messages on answering machines? Depends on the purpose of my phone call. if I am calling a cell and it's definite that they're going to call me back, I would just leave a msg on the voice mail.


About the Opposite Sex

What attracts you to them: that they are not me
Things they do to make your heart melt: puppy dog look. a smile.
Does money matter: never
Ideal height: doesn't exactly matter. But I realized that if a guy is shorter than me, then I have judgment issues such as...I believe that they are nothing more than a helpless child.
Build: geek build
Hair color: I find that I get along with dark haired types
Eye color: see above

WHO...

Makes you smile? PEOPLE!
Makes you laugh? my sis. and other people who are stupidly immature. MIIIKE DOES SOMETIMES. and sigh alas alecky?
Has made you cry? HEATHERS, all my exes, every other "friend"...
Can you count on? most people
Has made the biggest impact on you? Alan my first boyfriend
Has made you see things you never noticed before? everyone

When Was The Last Time ...

you told someone you loved them? A long time ago
you got dressed? After my shower 30 minutes ago
you got undressed? see above
you went to a dance?: The last "dance" was at my friend's sister's wedding. I was ready to rock the dance floor, but my friends weren't and nobody else at the wedding was either.
you danced at home?: can't remember this one
you sang aloud?: along to a mp3!
you had a boyfriend/girlfriend?: November 2001
you ate a pickle?: CalFest on Monday. Saul's was giving them out.
you threw something?: I toss the remains of my c00kie package into the trash.
you screamed?: silently at why the world isn't sane
you got angry?: AT NAIM
you watched a cartoon?: probably some random site. the cat one!
you brushed your teeth?: this morning
you played outside?: I played with my cellphone today...clickety click!
you brushed your hair?: my hair is not brushable
you had a heartfelt conversation with someone?: With eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee tonight!
you did something you really enjoyed?: there is something every day
you fell in love?: sometimes I question it



Miscellaneous Questions...

Favorite phrase? DOY
Phrase you say a lot? DOY
What do you like to do over the weekend?: sleep
Do you like math? In high school when I took calculus. Not anymore though :p
Does your school wear a uniform? Never. If you ask about my high school, then an uniform to look uber-rich might count.
Last movie you saw? Xmen 2. that was tonight!
Best Advice? Move on
Pet Peeves: alarm clocks. GRAMMAR ERRORS.
The most unusual thing about you? I am not normal.
If you had 3 wishes, what would they be? 1. Get a decent summer internship/job. 2. Get a decent gpa! 3. To discover if I will be unhappy later in life and see if I can do anything now to change it.



The Protagonist Boards..

What was your life like before you joined the boards? almost nonexistant. I DID NOT HAVE A LIFE BEFORE IT. I WAS BORN WHEN I JOINED.
Favorite Forum: all the blather. because you know, you can just blahter
Favorite Topic: Originally it was Offline visits from friends/parents. To think, that's how I got noticed. ;) Not exactly sure now.



Last updated: May 3, 2003